Musa's Ramadan Diary

Between Hope and Fear

As-salamu 'Alaykum

clipped from www.readingislam.com My name is Musa, and I am only 15 years old. I have recently reverted to Islam (ma sha' Allah) and this will be my first Ramadan. I have mixed emotions: One side of me is excited, the other side of me is terrified. I do not think actually fasting will be my problem, but rather hiding it from my family and friends. I have not yet told my parents of my reversion and although I do wish to, it seems near impossible for me. I have approached them many times about this, and as soon as I am ready to expose my true beliefs, my mouth refuses to open. I have mixed emotions: One side of me is excited, the other side of me is terrified. I do not think actually fasting will be my problem, but rather hiding it from my family and friends. I have not yet told my parents of my reversion and although I do wish to, it seems near impossible for me. I have approached them many times about this, and as soon as I am ready to expose my true beliefs, my mouth refuses to open.